I feel lost and boring and obsessive. my period is irregular. i don't eat real food. all i want to do is watch tv and enjoy the weather. i hate school. i hate the stress and how much it takes out of me and my parents who pay for this bullshit and i don't even know how they pay for it when they're both unemployed. i hate worrying. and i hate complaining about it. i'm full of hate today!! 

on another note i had a dream where i beat up a girl in my fibers class. like, i really beat the shit out of her. and then i took her friend who was freaking out and grabbed her by the collar and said "i'll fucking kill you." this is the second time in the past couple weeks that i've dreamt of knocking bitches out. i guess i have some built up anger because i feel awesome when i wake up.